Thursday, November 09, 2006

a couple days late but here it is





I swear there isn't enough hours in the day. That is why I have to constantly multi task. Right now at the gym on the elliptical trying to burns the calories from all the liquor and food I ate this weekend. So I was back at club 20 dancing again and this time the experience wasn't as awkward. If anything it almost felt normal. Unfortunately I didn't make anywhere near what I made the first night. And I know why. Its because I am not aggressive enough and I still have to learn how to talk to the guys and make them feel great and comfortable with me. I still have a lot to learn but I am willing to put in the hours. Or should I say put out ( just joking) some of the guys from last week were there and they were being supportive. Thanks you guys. I feel like club 20 is really going to help me out with being comfortable and confident. Because I must admit that the reason why I don't go up to the guys is because I am afraid of rejection. I have always been afraid of rejection for some odd reason. I never ever had gone up to a guy in my personal life to go out on dates or to tell the guy at the club that I think he was hot. Even my boyfriend. When I met him I could see that he was looking at me and giving me the signal that he was interested in me and I still didn't go up to him. Luckily I was there with my great buddy Cornell and he went up to ken and dragged him over to me. I was embarrassed but I am so happy he did. Cornell your the best. So going back to club 20. I have decided that I am not leaving that establishment were all these amazing guys go and have fun with out learning how to be confident with who I am and if I am rejected so what. I am not everyone's cup of tea but I won't know that till I test it out and try for my own. This won't be an over night thing so don't expect me to do this the next time I am there. But little by little ill start working on it till I have it. Ill create some alto ego who is confident and outgoing. Ill still keep my personality and all but just add a few things to the mix. Hopefully I have it done packed before I leave to Colombia. professor was telling me the same thing that I should create an act but still keep the essence of me. I am going to keep the advise. So now you can keep expecting me every Sunday at club 20. Well I think I am done now with blogging. I better get started at looking over my notes for my test tomorrow. Night

Jonathan Vargas

3 comments:

G Cracker said...

I think that its awesome that the guys at Club 20 have your back. That's the only way you can do that kind of work, is by having support from your coworkers.

While I was dancing at Club Gallery I wasn't especially aggressive, but I managed to make my tips by staying put. The trick, I discovered, was to make eye contact and smile specifcally at whoever it was I looked at. I could've made more by being more aggressive, but it's a step in the right direction.
They can reject you that way, but since it happens without you going over to them and without any conversation it's way less scary than being outright rejected.

I'm not sure who would reject you though.

filmfanatikk said...

Baby steps is the way to go. At least you realise this and are a work in progress. I have no idea why you have any self doubt (you are ADORABLE),but you'll get the confidence you want. Practice makes perfect. Just make sure you keep the sweetness that exudes from you. Happy weekend!

Donald said...

I can't believe anyone would reject you.......you are so HOT!!